remembered how I blogged about I don't think I'll like it? turns out I was way off base. it was amazing. hilarious as well. *laughs


the night before I was doing all the packing and folding papers and sticking stuff. took up a lot of my time anyways. in the end, I only slept for an hour. yes, an hour. considering that sleepover means no sleeping in reality, did not help me elevate my mood. so after an hour of really cranky sleep, I woke up to call the even crankier person for three to five times. only to find out that I was sort of scolded for waking the person. blerhs.


and guess what? I reached at about 7. and spent my whole morning and afternoon waiting for the whole world to arrive. jiahuei was waiting as well. we were talking happily, until we were interrupted by a a few people's arrival. *laughs laughs that song was funny.


jiahuei was the first to arrive. jian, choon, hoyong, khye mun, jamin, delon, josephine, gajoon, shukim.


we went to the gym. jian is some workout maniac. we had a nice talk about exercises though. and then poor shukim who was lost as well. at least she was lost in a CAR! which didn't freak me out that much. she got lost for more than an hour. pfft. everyone is blind when they reached the construction site.


later on, swimming. vincente and jian were sticking to each other. spin and walk to the other end. tugging to see who will win. went back up, showered. jian screaming that he smelled like peaches. *laughs laughs laughs shukim showers slow. all of us had to wait for her to emerge from the bathroom.


we walked all the way. it was near anyways. it's the first time I had to shop for my dinner. and it's the first time that a guy had to shop for the dinner, technically. while shukim and I just hung around getting everything that he asked us to. we had a debate there about the amount of things we had to buy. what with chicken soup and mushroom soup and msg iodide salt. hahaha, it was funny.


and we went up only to realize we forgot to get ice. by the time we passed everything to shukim and went down and up again, the whole world had already played twister. so I didn't get to play twister again!


we played happy families. as jiahuei said,

daddy ga,
mummy jo,
useless magician cinderella daughter shukim ( who got married to prince hairy in the end)
helpful daughter jiahuei
princess not doing anything daughter/ best friend tzejean
maid/ chef/ grandpa/ son-in-law trying to impress parents delon


and no, we didn't cook our dinner. gajoon and delon cooked our dinner. *laughs laughs laughs and yes, it's the first time I experienced guys cooking and girls waiting around for dinner. hahaha, they make good chefs. it was actually quite nice, surprisingly. and yes, the "pop" of the sparkling juice scared us all. XD


pfft. zombieland was pure horror. it wasn't horror and comedy or hor-medy as jiahuei said. it was PURE horror. shukim and I were under our blankets most of the time. legolas is attractive. jiahuei, josephine and I were all going yay when he came out. and gandalf would be quite cool as a grandfather. hahaha! apparently everyone fell asleep at 3 while watching telly except for delon and I.


and they all took the living room and my bed was taken by jiahuei chong. pfft. she didn't even sleep on her own couch and took mine instead. and gajoon took away the cushion which makes it impossible for me to sleep on the other couch *glares at gajoon* we talked for a while then slept at about 5 or so.





yeah, my father forgot to tell me that there was a fire drill. josephine was funny. she kept saying we were all going to die. while I kept saying that it's not a real fire. which I was sort of right anyways.

watched another hor-medy in the morning. gosh, it's so NOT comedy. it was plain horror. and shukim and I kept screaming. it was terrifying. still is. and the person who refuses to brush the teeth! blerhs.

just so you know, the whole world still owes me pizza money. except for gajoon, jiahuei and josephine. and shukim whom I'm not sure if she paid me already or not.




yes, I like the sleepover. hahs to those who went back early! XDDDDD
and yes, I'm glad I didn't cancel it in the end.




I'm going shopping again tomorrow. I've been out almost everyday. yay me. and I'm still having problems finding my dress. I finally know why. cause all the dresses are too big. or maybe I'm too small. and if the dresses are altered, it won't be as nice anymore. blerhs.

I went taylors and sunway today. now I have to choose between A levels and the Canadian one. and which college. so soon, so soon. she doesn't like that, he likes it, I'm in between. see how torn apart everyone is?


don't worry, I'm still a happy child. very much so. =)



By,
Tze

I think I'm supposed to update about sleepover.

I'll update tomorrow.


thought I wouldn't like it. turned out to be funny and amazing. well, to those who sleptover anyways. those that didn't, well, it was just, normal. *laughs


and just so you know, my father forgot to tell me there was a fire drill. hahaha.


headache. tomorrow then.


By,
Tze

you know, now that spm is over and everything. I'm actually more busy than I was before spm. all the outings, the shopping, the bondings, it's very energy draining.


shall I bore you all about how my day had went today? yes I shall.


I had my undang talk today. yes, the "prawn" talk. anyways, it was supposed to be at 9. jiahuei came over to my house around 8 and yes, she woke me up with her phone call, informing me that she was outside the guard house. being me, I jumped up from the bed and sprinted to wash up and all.


the talk started at 10 though. and yes, the guy talking was so soft that I couldn't hear a single thing. all of us were talking. I met a few new people, they're very nice. and pokable. pikthing and jason were there as well. hahaha, and I met people like ann sin and all. if I got their name right. the 8 of us ( I think) were happily talking and fooling around at the back of the class. and we saw xinying yap and kenneth wong by coincidence. no, we didn't talk.


all I learnt was how to buy tickets from the airport and not to get a limo cause it's hard to turn and get a kancil rather than a mini cooper. yeah, it was pretty useless. and undang exam is on 17th. yes, one day before prom.


speaking of prom, I went dress shopping on wednesday. and I'm in deep trouble. how can a person walked from 4 to 10 and not find a single dress she likes? I'm going there with a towel wrapped around me or something. I'm just kidding anyways, but yeah, I can't find my dress. I'm in deep trouble. and yes! I'm stressing about it! very much so! *groans in frustration


apparently, I think I'm too picky or something. my mother and I went around the whole mall and we couldn't find one. arghs.


about tomorrow, I'm actually very very uninterested in that. okay, I'm a bad hostess! whatever! but I'm, yeah, not looking forward. not really. whose idea was it!? *coughs jiahuei coughs gajoon coughs*


my bestest friend scared me. I thought he was gonna burst through the glass doors to make me watch all five of the SAW movies. which he isn't. thank God.



billypenguin wants me to blog about her. such a demanding person. I used to call her billygoat. but then she decided that she didn't like goat. so a penguin is better. so billypenguin it is. and ohmyword, how can she not tell me that she MIGHT be going to singapore to study next year?



I don't want to think about people leavin like- urghs. it's so depressing. you know, usually when I know a person is about to leave, I put distance between myself and them. so that when they leave, it wouldn't hurt that much. and I'll get immune anyways. but this time, I got it flipped over. the one that I thought who was never coming back, is coming back. the one that I thought will come back, is leaving forever. so I distanced myself from the wrong person. and yes, this time. it's not making me happy.





that person should know who I'm referring to. and we still have time right? we still do.


okays, I'm not emo. I'm just sleepy. these few days have been energy draining for me. don't worry, I'm still in bliss mood. how funny, I've nothing to blog about. or maybe my brain isn't working again.


I'm should call kenn yang to talk. he called me twice already. I should. but I'm so lazy. let him call me again. XD I know I'm a horrible godsister. hahaha!



you know, the more you think you do, the more you don't. the more you think you don't, you actually do. just so you know. she is my world. he is the one I go to. they are the ones I talk to.


okay, actually, I think I'm in a bad mood. sleep it off then.




By,
Tze

okay, to shukim and corliss and jian and whoever that thinks I'm emo, I'm not!!

I'm not emo okay! hahaha! I'm super hyper so yeah. XD


yeah, I think I'm too hyper. I might have freaked vincente away today while talking to him. a very nice example of us talking. the whole conversation was practically in caps thanks to me screaming all the way. I was just high. and still am, but not that much now.



ohmyword jiahuei! I called kenn yang! oh my word. he's was being so nice. ah, I feel guilty. it makes me look like a murderer. sighs. but he's still my amazing godbrother. yes, he's still willing to be my godbrother. I can't believe it. but I don't think I can tell him everything about everything anymore. it'll drive him insane. ah, he's got to be the best person on earth. sighs. I feel mean. and no, I didn't use your sentence! hahaha! it's so corny. XD



and this is for jian who's eyes are too small to read what I wrote. I hope this is large enough for you to read cause it's super big right now. and you can skip the whole post and only read this part because you won't get blind if you just read this part. XD


ZARA! don't you love Zara? sighs. and Charles and Keith as well. *sighs dreamily* I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait. the whole world went out to shop during exams time and I can't. this is making me all jittery and impatient. blerhs.




you know, Pull and Bear has some really nice boots. thanks to billypenguin who introduced it to me. I mean, I still prefer Charles and Keith's heels and all. and no, it's not high. I think 3 inches is okay. I usually wear 3 inches and walk for hours non-stop. which reminds me, I have to get myself heels and sandals.


maybe I should stop all these shopping talk. not everyone is interested in shopping.


hmm, new moon or shopping? what would you choose? I know I won't like new moon cause of the cast and all. I like the BOOK. not the movie. but I still want to watch it anyways. but I can't make up my mind if I want to watch new moon or go shopping. decisions, decisions. and no, I can't do both. yes, I'm indecisive. what would YOU choose?




I was going to blog about something funny. but I forgot what was it. anyways, it was that thing I said I was going to blog before physics paper 3. the thing that I disallow jiahuei to blog cause I wanted to blog. but I forgot. so jiahuei, if you remember you can blog about it. it was about me saying something and you repeating something and we all laughed.


and yes, I like this phrase.

call me crazy or maybe I just have a wicked sense or humour. it cracks me up everytime I read that phrase. I don't know why either. *laughs laughs laughs


hahaha! and jian told me something funny about the coach and all. I don't think it's very nice of me to say it all out here. he might murder me. hahaha! sumo barty. nice to meet you. *laughs



arghs, I still like papillons. they're so cute. sighs. I know I have my mixed now and I'm happy with it, very much so, but I still love papillons so much. they're so pretty, reminds me of butterflies. urghs.


I like looking at butterflies. far far away from me. I don't like them at close distance. when i can see the insect body and stuff. *shivers they're just better looking when they're far far away from you. I think I just like wings in general.





which reminds me of jamin. I told her once, in general, yada yada yada. and she was going all, whatthe! "in general?!" dude, I gave you details!! am I going to have to to whack the details out of you? yes, that's exactly what she said, curiosity made her say it. in the end, she killed off my thumbs by texting her. I still have her text locked in my phone. hahaha! it was funny despite of all the worrying that I had that time.


I talked to candice that other day. I'm. so. happy. I like candice. I didn't realise it, I thought I got over it. but it seems like I miss candice. she's back now at least. most of you won't know her. she played a pretty big role in my life before it. we'll meet her on the 18th then. I miss candice. I like her.



I don't really have bonding times with hweephen anymore. I think it's exams that's why. I haven't been talking to her much these few days. maybe I'm spending too much time in the next class. probably. but we will have our bonding times after exams. we will, won't we?




thanks you people, but honestly, I'm not emo. I'm fine. stop worrying, it's really not worth it.




hahaha, and after typing that I suppose you all won't believe me about me being fine right? well I am. I just typed it for kicks. it's a nice phrase to live by anyways. but I'm okay. really. especially tan shukim, you can chill. I'm fine. no worries.


and corliss, I like you. so don't think so much and stop worrying alright? and by the way, the songs that I blogged here, are absolute loves. and those that are stuck in the cerebrum. well, for me anyways. XD




By,
Tze

this post isn't organized. it's pretty much all over the place with lots of rantings. so you probably shouldn't read it. it's a waste of time and space not to mention effort. =)


jiahuei, kenn yang isn't even at home so there's no point calling him. I'll call again tomorrow. =)




okay, fine. it looks like I'm unable to keep the non-blogging thing. since there's just one more exam away, I shall blog happily. without feeling guilty.


huh, I thought I had a lot to blog. looks like I couldn't type it into words. my mind is a mess. but I'm not emo, no I'm not. I'm still, okay. I hope.




it was a long time ago, yet, I can still remember what we said on that day, shukim. it was, excruciating. something that I haven't tried in a long time. and I should, I think. but I'm grateful that we did manage to chat about it. somehow. and I can't believe I'm blogging that out. it's like, my top instinct for survival. everything is gonna crumble now I suppose. sighs.


shopping. I like shopping. we should go around and shop for pretty things. don't you agree with me? especially josephine. she would agree I know. and jiahuei would too. and jamin and a lot of people. we shall shop after exams. yay us.


truth to be told, I'm tired of tears. very much so. and I think, I finally did ran out of it too. well, at least for a one week or two. most of the time I'm hyperventilating anyways. fine, whatever, I don't- urghs.

if writing down is supposed to be helping, well, let me tell you, it isn't helping at all. jiahuei said I should tell someone cause I'm not telling anyone about what I'm frustrated at. but telling the whole world through here isn't helping. and they wonder why don't I tell them.




A friend once said to me "What’s wrong? = What stupid self inflicted psychological trauma is it now?" and freaking hell, I have to say I agree with that about me now. so it's pointless asking me "what's wrong".




they don't know what they're saying that's killing me right now. and what's worse, it's three people talking to me about it at once. and they don't know what happened to me. they thought everything was as usual. nothing happened. I wish they wouldn't talk about it. don't you realize I keep changing the topic? they didn't know I saw.




you. don't. know. what-
urghs. fine. this isn't something I should talk about here. you're not the only one.


I find myself annoyingly annoying. and yes, sometimes I hate myself as well. and I'm not gonna hit myself, yet.




you know, you and breezy said the same things to me. breezy said some time ago. and I'm gonna tell you two again, I'm not suicidal. I'm fine and am normal.


I'm unimportant okay! you people out there, stop saying as though as I am. gees, I'm invisible. =) I'd rather be invisible and be ignored by everyone than to be avoided. huh.




national service. my dad postponed me to the second batch. then he's gonna defer forever. I'm a happy child about this. yay to my father.


yes I can. do you want to know why? I can solve everyone's problems. except for mine.


I'm not supposed to be in a position to complain. this is all my fault anyways. yeah it is. honestly.



I got this advice from a friend once. I know it isn't a good advice but still, works like a charm.
if I had my way with everything, I would rather I do not exist. everything would be much easier this way. no, there's a difference between wanting to perform suicide and wishing you not to exist in the first place. I love my life. but sometimes, maybe I shouldn't have existed.



okay, I really should stop boring the whole world with me, myself and I. I know I'm selfish and self-centered only talking about myself. after all, everyone else has bigger problems than me. I'm a lucky girl. =)





By,
Tze

please check the wings blog from time to time. cause I might ask you all things there.
about events and invitations and stuff.
so yeah. and I don't really want to disturb this blog of mine. that is more like asking and stuff. and this is more like, ranting and telling things.
so please check, yeah? =)
thanks much.

your fault. I'm breaking my I'm-not-supposed-to-post rule. because you wanted to see. and I don't even know what you like! I went around searching for some of yours I got them here.



nicola, nice to see you back. are you okay? stroke? =( worried, me. how long will it take for you to fully recover?


spm by far is still okayish. but I mess up some stuff. whatever. not gonna think about it.



and I think I injured my fingers. by typing too fast. yes, so I injured my right hand by typing on msn. it sounds weird I know. *laughs and now using a calculator hurts.


I can't believe jiahuei went shopping. pfft.



I owe vincente a birthday post. by the time this ends, I'll owe a lot of people birthday posts. ish. and presents.


yes corliss, future love by Kristina DeBarge is absolute loves.


okays, add maths calls. I shall go "revise". XD whatever, I think I gave up. 4 hours of break. insane.

my thoughts are in pieces. that's why this post is in pieces. scattered.










By,
Tze